The return of the Blogger.

Hey howdy hey HO! you guys!
Im back after the craziest month of my life.
It has been full of ups and downs and lefts and yes you guessed it rights.
I've been homeless and broke, heartbroken and Broken down.
It got to the point where I almost murdered someone and sold myself on the corner in my classico outfit.
the cucumber in a mankini...selling oranges. and myself for sex.
but thankfully it did not resort to that.
I no longer go to school.
I no longer Live in Houston.
No, i live in a small very very very quiet town called lake dallas.
here.
Living on my own, with my fiance.
Started arguing....but hey, thats a normal healthy relationship.
I just wanted to tell you guys that i am alive, and will hopefully be able to stick to my regular postings.
after this upcoming weekend i will let you all know everything that happened....
in segments of course.
shame if i ruined a perfectly good story in one shot eh?
well see you guys all monday....
well actually if i see you guys monday...please ask yourself...
how the hell did i get there...and tell me
where the fuck am i?

No post tonight guys.

Sorry people to do to my trip that I'm having with my seem to be family I will not make a post tonight at all so instead you guys were just have to wait until Monday morning when I re activate my phone and have my weekend post for you guys again I'm sorry but this trip is very important so that I can get close to my fiance's family and get to know them better I will miss you guys and I regret not being able to make it the supposed to freeze tonight sorry peace and see you guys Monday

Vlog 1 watch it now!

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The three g's of my life

It is time I told you guys the 3 G's that have changed my life forever. It has been a while since I have done a post where I went back and reflected upon my life and the choices I have made. What are the 3 G's, they are the three things and/or people who have made a difference in my character. And no before you try to guess the 3 G's they are not Google gameboy or gerbils. Now don't get me wrong the 3GS are very important in life 2 but they did not make a big difference in my character. And while Google help me through School, Google did not help much outside of that. Yes! The gameboy kept me occupied while my family fought at each other, it did not really affect me much. And gerbils well they are just cute and hilarious.

No the 3 G's that have changed my life our God Mr G and Dr G. God opened my eyes to hope. Without God I don't think I could push on as hard as I have been these last couple of weeks for my life actually. God gave me that one thing I needed and that was hope. Because without hope what is there to hold on to. Granted my religion is often on and of but he did give me hope, I don't ever want to lose that. I need to hope. I need hope when I wake up in the morning when I go to sleep when I'm sitting down on the toilet and my stomach is just hurting because the little turd won't come out of my butt. And I'm just sitting there praying for a miracle that the pain is going to go away . We all need a little hope in our lives, it can go a long way.

The second to G in my life is Mr G. My high school principal that I will not lie at first I hated the guy. I remember I was sitting down inside my summer school class and this man walked in thinking he was going to make a change in the school that everything was going to be just fine and he saw the good in everything but I knew this cool that I was in was no good it was a different and difficult and nobody wanted to make a change. Nobody was willing to give us a chance. Mr G was. He saw the good in all of us. Mr G gave me a better view to change. He made me strive to make myself better to make a difference in myself so that I can make a difference in the people around me and my community. Before Mr G I didn't care about education I didn't care about making a difference in my life I was just going to go wherever the waves took me. And it got me into a lot of drugs drinking and just going nowhere with my life. After Mr G I don't know where I would be without that man. And because I changed I begun to hung out with a lot of people who help me change help me become better than I was helped me become this person that I am now a person who doesn't give up a person who will help at a moment's notice notice just like Mr G would. Mr G made a change in at school and he's going to continue to make a change because I was somebody who didn't have hope I was somebody who refused to change. It sometimes it just takes the right person to nudge you push you over the edge to get you to realize Hey wake up.

The last G in my life is the most recent. His name is Dr G and what this man is done is opened my eyes to what I want in my future. He gave me a better understanding of what I really want to do with my life how I want to make a difference. Because of this man I have been on a roll throughout this whole time I've been here at school and have only missed a few days vs high school barely making it and missing a shit ton of days. I hate to say that unfortunately I will never see these people again although they have made the biggest difference in my life. Hope, change, in the realization that there is more than just Houston and this little south west side Harris County that I live in. That there's more than just the 56 or 7 streets that I know really well. I am going to be leaving soon and I just thought I'd reflect on the three things that changed me the most. And it's difficult not to cry because it's just true. I don't know where I would be without these three things that have made my character that have defined me in the times when it got the most rough. I've seen friends die I've lost too many people, friends that I've said I would be there till the end with and now they're complete strangers. My own home is no longer safe. My own home is against me my own family. But with the hope. But with the change. And with the realization that my future is not what I fear it will be. Those are the things that push me.

I am sent a reply that this may be my last week here in Houston. I do wish to say goodbye to my friends and my family even though most of the guys have been complete asshole to me. Even though that you guys brought me down and told me how much I was going to fail on my own. I will miss you guys I will not lie I've never seen lie to you guys and I won't start now. It's true Houston is all I know I was pretty much raised here in Houston for the most part. But sometimes you just have to let go and move on. My future is with the love of my life. And even though I just had to make the most difficult decision of my life with her she still is my future. She is that thing that I needed. She is my living breathing flesh and blood hope. This is Joseph signing off I'll see you guys on Wednesday with my video blog my mid day um update. So don't forget to check it out just look up my name or look up state of Lake you should see my channel and my videos. I love you guys without y'all I don't know where I would be. So thank you God, Mr G, and Dr G for all you three have done for me.

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Best weekend ever.

Hey everyone I'm back from a very very very very very short but oh well deserved weekend. I decided to take the Greyhound bus all the way up to Fort Worth to see love of my life: the most beautiful the most intriguing the most gorgeous and sexy and just amazing person I have ever ever met in my life. My fiance. We had not seen each other in over 2 weeks if you guys remember I told you the last time I saw her was the day of her graduation she dropped me off at home no not even that she didn't even get to drop me off home I wrote in the back of her moms car for about almost an hour and knocking the most awkward car ride of my life ever in the history of most awkward car rides in history of car rides out. I didn't get to see her off to Dallas I didn't get to say goodbye in person only got your text messages of her saying I'm leaving and I'm staying for good I'm not coming back to Houston that's it the moose I'm gone. Ok lie it kills me so much to not see her for so long but I learned to live without her and miss her that wasn't much does freaking out I have to learn how to do that. And now have heard over 2 weeks I finally came back from my tuesday little vocation with her. I am using the voice feature on my phone you guys have been pre warned it is very very buggy. But I am at work and I need both hands free. Anyway back to where I left off, I took the Greyhound bus up to Fort Worth I stopped in Austin I stopped in Waco and then there was a stop before my actual stop in Fort Worth. And the whole ride, the whole aggravating and long excruciatingly painful ride there was in 10 year old boy sitting behind me kicking my chair repeatedly stop back to stop after stop. But somehow I survived the entire trip the 8 hour long trip on the Greyhound bus. Every hour that went on by I was shaking more and more getting nervous that I was finally going to see her after so long. After worrying about her for over 2 weeks being in the hospital because of the stress that in a way she kind of but not really put on me I was going to see my fiance and I was going to give her something that was long overdue. Her engagement ring. It was sitting in my jacket and I was just looking at the whole ride holding on to that little box for deer fucking life nobody was going to let kama nobody was going to take it away from me. When I arrived in Fort Worth I felt a sigh of relief that was finally going to see her and I did. We booked a hotel room for the next two nights Friday and Saturday night I saw her little sister again who I hadn't seen and I almost half a year almost. God she got big kama she's starting to grow up. It was her sister's birthday a few days before I got there and I didn't have anything to give her except some money so I gave her 20 bucks. I made a mistake right there because now she associates me Joe with the one who has money and is willing to give it to her. Now don't get me wrong I do not mind giving her little sister money she's a good little girl and you know what she brings a smile to my face the more importantly she brings a smile to my fiance's face. I meant more for my fiance's family I ate some barbecue and I went to the hotel room what the love of my life. Which is a funny story because on the way there my fiance's mom said and I quote do I need to stop at CVS for you guys to pick up something. At first I was confused and I thought she was joking when I realized what she meant but no she was very fucking serious. She stopped at CVS made me and my fiance get out to make her feel embarrassed and made us go inside CVS to go buy a pack of condoms. Now keep in mind I will not lie anytime that me and my fiance have had sex we have not used in we have used condoms once and that was the first time we ever had sex. So it was like taking a kid to the Lego store in St you get to pick one Lego of the whole store only one not a set not a box not a good you know actions figure you get one little piece of Lego. She didn't know what to do her eyes were blushing her face was just melting it was it was weird to see my fiance embarrassed her face was as red as red could possibly be like just look at the picture bread with anything look at anything red see how it is its more red than that. And I couldn't pick anything the ones I had picked she didn't want because just because she didn't want those in particular. So her mom send in her girlfriend and she decided to pick one out because since she is a lesbian she doesn't get to use them so she figured why not let it go to Dunkins usin. So all in all a lesbian decided how long it was going to go which didn't bother me I was fine with that I couldn't decide there were so many flavors and no different types of condoms did just choose but all in all she chose the Ribbed Condoms. So that was a very very traumatizing moment for my fiance and we ended up going to the hotel I checked in we took our stuff up into the room and the first thing we did what's hold each other and kiss. That kiss was the most memorable kiss I have ever had with my fiance it was like it just felt natural like how when a bird flies in the sky in the air is brushing against its body in its wings in his face it just feels right or when fish or anything that was in the water is swimming and the feel of the water in my breathing everything that's under water it just feels natural. That is what it was like for me. I could not wait to take this ring out of my pocket and show it to her and say hey I know my mom put some stupid shit last time with the old ring here is the best one that I have ever laid my eyes on its your size it is perfect for you I had to wait for the right moment. It was amazing because we lay down and just look into each others eyes innocent baby I love you I told her hand I open the box and I put the ring on her finger. That was the most satisfying moment for me of the weekend that and the fact that we had to keep stopping at the gas station that was right there 45 times to pick up extra packs of condoms because a small pack of 3 was not enough for the sex addict that we are . We went to Six Flags the next day I blacked out on a couple of rides I was a big chicken shit I could not help but enjoy my entire time with her I came back to the hotel room sunburned we ate dinner we went on a date with me down in bed and just talked ordered room service and enjoyed ourself I spent a good um I would say of four hundred and sixty dollars this past weekend on us. I do not regret a single bit of it and I cannot wait to see her in the next 10 days few hours and so many minutes where I will be over at her house for not one day not two days 4 days 5 days or even weeks but nine whole days to be with my beautiful fiancee home actually I don't even really consider my fiance I really consider her my wife because in my eyes I don't think two people need to be recognized by the court to be married the same thing I see with gay couples if they consider themselves mary did you know what fuck it they are married I consider me and her married I consider her my wife and that's what she is to me even if I want us to be married under common law I know she still wants to do the big wedding I don't have a problem with that I'm on for the big wedding because my goal is for the biggest and most weird wedding anyone has ever fucking scene. Again I am sorry for this super long post there will be many pictures to accompany it please follow my blog leave comment if you have any questions you can email me at any of the two links on the bottom on the site appears on the actual web version please do not hesitate to reach out to me for any questions I'm here to you I'm here for you guys to share my life and my experiences if there's anything you guys wish to hear please let me know in the next couple days after everything's been settled in court officially I will tell you guys the story about this stalker has been stalking me and the love of my life for the last few days. I love you guys have a good time and I will see you guys in a couple more days adios amigos

Just thinking

Hey my fellow followers! It has been quite a while since my last post. What have I been up to? Nothing much, just preparing for my bus trip via the bus, up to Dallas. My last mod is over, I lost 8 class mates. They all hopefully start their externship soon. I'm gonna miss them. God bless them where ever they are. Speaking of god, I have been doing a lot of thinking on my beliefs and just re touching base on where I stand. It has never been easy, but people interpret the book in the wrong way. I believe pride week is still going on, and I remember a time back when I had a boyfriend. It was no different than dating a girl. But the book says love thy neighbor. Nothing more nothing less. But those who commit acts of betrayal are to be stoned. People do this on a regular basis, I've witnessed it too many times. There was a time when I should have been stoned. But we don't because we believe in forgiveness. Nothing is wrong with these same sex relationslships. I love almost everyone I meet, I don't treat them any different than I would a straight person. I love thy neighbors. Lol. I have been sick as of lately, high Bp and nightmares I can't dilute. It's been a rough four days but soon I will see my fiance. Here are some pictures I have been taking since. Btw.....do not mix monsters and coffee....and cheeseburgers.....ugh is the feeling afterwards.

I have returned!`

So to make a long story short.
I am happy. I am excited!
I wake up with energy I thought i would never feel again.......
maybe also that is because I had a Starbucks double shot and two monsters
to get my day going.
Because I had a long crazy night.
Me and my wife to be had a long night to be more honest,
I started having these nightmares again.
They usually happen after big events in my life.
The first that i can remember was back when I was enlisting for the military.
I got in had an awesome mos, top secret clearance and everything.
My nightmare?
Like a lot of people it was me attending my own funeral. Nothing big.
They happened every night without fail every night.
up until i had my accident.
Got hit by a truck, fucked up my knee. didn't ship off.
They stopped.
Up until recently when i proposed to kristyl and she left for Dallas.
A new nightmare.
One so bad that i wake up in sweat sometimes even yelling.

What it is it?
I was at a funeral, walking in a long line passing my family on the left, and kristyls on the left.
as i get to the front the faces become less and less familiar. At the very front there are kids. crying and sobbing up a storm.
Somehow i know who died but at the same time i don't.
I walk up to the casket and look inside.
It is kristyl. I feel my heart drop , almost stopping.
The lights all dissapear i end up in a dark room,
i pull her body out of the casket and yell and scream and cry.
Her body rots, and turns to dust in my arms.
When she is gone im all alone, i look to the side and see a knife.
I take the knife and proceed to slice open my throat.
Thats when I wake up.
I call kristyl immediately asking if she is ok.
I know they will go away when I see her in july. 21 days!
please oh please, help me get through the days.

Planning a trip and a wedding [updates later today]

Hey guys its me Joe!
I have had quite a hectic week.
Been busy planning a wedding and also a trip i will be taking
in July.
So to my subscribers up in Dallas....Be prepared i will be up there soon.
I will give a full on yummy post later today after my exam.
So after two o clock.
Stay tuned for more!!!!!
 ps: anyone know a good countdown widget good for blogger???

The clock ticks.

So now the clock is ticking you guys. I am getting married in exactly 1916 days. That's five years and two months. I would tell you the exact time but, the thing is always changing. Lol so today there will be several updates to the blog, a countdown clock will be added, more pictures!!!!!, and a real post tomorrow. I have just been so busy with school you guys. I love Everest, they really are student focused. I can bring myself up. I just have to work hard. Well now I have to get ready for work. So later guys! Check back in by one o clock!

What's the word??? Bird is the word!!!!

No I'm just kidding.
The real word is a surprise.
The fact of the matter is I am
Engaged!!!!
That's right guys, I proposed to the love of my life on Friday the seventh. When's the date???
Not for a long while, as much as I am dying to give her my last mame. In 2018 I will be a happily married man. With the most amazing of woman ever to roam these lands!!!! I have many pictures to post you guys, from the graduation to the banquet And everything in between. So here you guys go!!!! I have to get ready.for work and school. Be sure to check the facebook page. Links above at the top!!!! Stay strong my friends!!!!