Have you ever felt.......

You ever just love someone so much you begin to tolerate everything they do? or don't do? That you begin to think of it as a habit. And you know its not ok for you to think that way. but you just do.
I think I told you guys that every morning I go to see my gf. I wake up at 5 and do my morning business.
then i am out my door by 630 on the dot to wait for her. she doesn't get there till after 730 because she moved further away. And I don't mind because in this time I continue to write my book and thing of some songs to write. Its my morning meditation of sorts.  Then I drop everything and play some music and wait until about 745. If she does not show she was late and went to class. again i am ok with this for some reason. It should bother me, because I know if it was her, it would bother her. Yet im ok. I believe i am because i know she is not off doing anything she should not be. I trust her completely. I love her.
You know that feeling? Ever since I started working I cant see her. Thursday was the last time. And Its not even the fact that I want sex or anything like that. I want to sit down and talk to her. Just talk and laugh and be goofy like we always are. I know one day we will be together under the same roof. And experience heaven truly. I don't have that with anyone else. Not even my family. That level of trust. She is precious to me.

btw! quick life update! I did make ambassador and my scrubs are kick ass!
have a great day guys! Im off to work!

A long week!

What a hectic week so far. Did you guys just enjoy the morning? I hope you did, because there were plenty of opportunities. I have recently started writing again. And Guess what???? I got a job! I start working on
friday! geez thats tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. I finally have my black scrubs, the girl of my dreams, a job, and my music. Life is perfect.
Again I started writing.
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Blessed we are

blessed we are, to live in this amazing, and yet terrible planet.
such beauty and disgust in it.
cherish your day eh? you might not get to see such beautiful days everyday. Like I do. every morning.
I believe you should take a moment everyday to just be thankful to whoever you are thankful to, for your day of life. I am, every morning when i go to see my girlfriend, I take a moment to look and just be amazed. its nice. try to do the same! I challenge you to do so. maybe email some pictures of your morning! I will return with another post next week!

Hey guys! I am back after a nice little break!
I have great news! I finally made Ambassador!
for those of you who dont know, pretty much im a student leader.
Im proud that i finally made it!
if you know this past week was killing me
and i took a well deserved break.
Yesterday i spent the day with the one i love. we goofed off and took a well deserved nap. we both needed the break, and i am glad we did.
we used to barely see each other, and now something or someone answered my prayers! The one thing i wanted in life i got. Now i just have to wait a while longer for another chance.

so! to you my followers! dont get down!
SAY IT AS IF IT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED!
faith is one powerful weapon. stay strong people! share and follow!

Been a while.

Hey guys! sorry it has been over a week since a post. I've been a little busy.
I'm sure you all have been as well. So for now i will give you guys a bit of an UPDATE on my life.
This week has been very rough on me, school and just life itself.
I have been trying to find some roommies while keeping my grades.
Not easy at all. My school has decided to put me into the ignitor ambassador program, think of it as student leadership. I have had to write to essays! one due thursday and the other monday. and that is zero fun.
I've been angry as of lately........I dont see the one I love as much anymore. I miss her. And it has been affecting me in every way possible. I'm depressed, I cant do simple lab procedures when I dont see her. I cant focus. And I'm angry.....at everyone.....sometimes I even get mad at her.....and its not her fault. But I don't let her see that. She has no control over it.
Do I wish she  wasn't so busy?
Of course I do. I always do.
I recently deleted all my """Friends""" of facebook.
xD I did that because well, None of them are really my friends. I dont have any.
Maybe I never have. I need a job, I need money.
You know, (here is a secret) Sometimes I feel like a shitty boyfriend. Why?
One, I am broke, and I try so hard.....but things aren't getting better. Not with our relationship, but, I dont know where she is, I see her less than I already was, Its hard, and it makes me tear up.
because I love her. I need her. I'm nothing without her.
Just a nerdy guitar playing medical assistant in training. And quite frankly........
I dont see myself doing any of those things anymore.........
My depression is catching up.
sorry if its a little downing. But soon I will make another post. Hopefully with better news.

Talk about sheer stupidity!

So a new thing has been going around. Well Its Not new. Its the five finger fillet, but with a twist. you must play and sing a song. Finish the song without hurting yourself and you win.....Its the dumbest thing i have ever seen. People have been hurting them selves....why? Its cool thats why.....and I did it. Heres a pic of the Knives i used, and then a link to the video. DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME! YOU CAN LOSE A FINGER OR HURT YOURSELF! I DID IT BC IM AN IDIOT. AND ALSO BC I PRACTICED! PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS!

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