Have you ever felt.......

You ever just love someone so much you begin to tolerate everything they do? or don't do? That you begin to think of it as a habit. And you know its not ok for you to think that way. but you just do.
I think I told you guys that every morning I go to see my gf. I wake up at 5 and do my morning business.
then i am out my door by 630 on the dot to wait for her. she doesn't get there till after 730 because she moved further away. And I don't mind because in this time I continue to write my book and thing of some songs to write. Its my morning meditation of sorts.  Then I drop everything and play some music and wait until about 745. If she does not show she was late and went to class. again i am ok with this for some reason. It should bother me, because I know if it was her, it would bother her. Yet im ok. I believe i am because i know she is not off doing anything she should not be. I trust her completely. I love her.
You know that feeling? Ever since I started working I cant see her. Thursday was the last time. And Its not even the fact that I want sex or anything like that. I want to sit down and talk to her. Just talk and laugh and be goofy like we always are. I know one day we will be together under the same roof. And experience heaven truly. I don't have that with anyone else. Not even my family. That level of trust. She is precious to me.

btw! quick life update! I did make ambassador and my scrubs are kick ass!
have a great day guys! Im off to work!